Tuesday, May 02, 2006
sigh
TODAY. IS THE DAY WHEN MY SCIENCES ARE ALL ALL DONE. WHEEEEHEEE.but i feel really scared for my chem. ahhh ahhh ahhhh. i studied reallyreally hard for it. even harder then for my bio. and yet bio was super easy while chem was so difficult! AHH WHY WHY?!
i thought i could relieve myself from stress at handbells. but then. some people just did not have to cooperate. really. do you people have respect for your elders? i really wished the sec4s was here today. rui was under stress today and i was feeling rather annoyed with them. like one is fine, the other knows too much and dosen't know how to respect her seniors.. while the other just like just keeps quiet there and don't do anything until we instruct her too. like HELLO you are 13 already. surely you know how to stand on your own feet and watch out for yourself and all. you don't just stand there and when we wanna start you haven't even highlighted your score when others have done earlier during the allotted time. baaaah what crap is this i'm wondering. and then if you don't know how to shake your bell at least say so lah! don't just keep quiet there and then when we ask who are the people doing the shake part then you say you don't know how to shake.. like have more than half the time is gone and we went through the song like how many times????
and for you. stop giving that excuse. 'i'm only sec1.' so WHAT if you are sec1? we were all sec1 once and if we made mistakes we just accept it from your seniors and take it as a learning lesson! that's what we still do now. its very very annoying when you give that stupid excuse. and urgh. i think the next time i catch anyone touching the bell so lovingly... meaning like rubbing and rubbing the metal part.. i'm seriously gonna tell that person not to touch it so much or else it will turn dirty veryvery fast. i feel very protective over our bells hahaha. i guess the reason we really want you to do well and stop crapping about is number 1.. we don't wanna get scolded by mrs aw on friday when she sees the standard of playing.. and for syf. you need to learn how to cooperate with rui. i empahsize on the NEED.
baaah. i think i'm ultra pissed now. but i have a feeling rui is more pissed than me. whooosh rui you still have petty, monica, prisci and me! we shall stick together eh? (okay that sounds like honey. random talk)
there are some other matters which i feel really confused about. i don't know how should i feel towards this and that. its just this very confused feeling. oh well. i guess leaving it in God's hands is the best right.
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something about what deborah said struck me quite abit
she said she needed a best friend.
well, all i can say is that i don't have a best friend too. and i'm perfectly happy with that. cos i know Jesus is my bestiest friend and He is always there for me. therefore, i can go without one. hehe. i have plenty of friends around me.. and i appreciate them. a few of them would be esther, jasmine, lipin, becky, jieyi, monica, ruijun, deborah and priscilla. haha. and of course there's someone else too.. and i appreciate her very much too (:
ps : thanks jie yi for taking the time to listen to me! haha i don't usually blab around to people how i feel. anyway thanks! ;D
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